What is your breaking point?

I am sure that mine is quite near already. All this stress and pressure from the upper management while they sit there doing nothing. Sure, it is easy for them to say, "So, is there any progress so far?" when yesterday they just called to ask exactly the same thing. Or "This is our top priority project!" when there is only 3 engineers working an project that should be worked on by 15 engineers.

As each day goes by, my patience and endurance is slowly wearing down with each call for status report or progress updates. What the f**king hell is wrong with you all loh. Its not as if we are not working here loh. Here we are, thousands of kilometer away from our home, working hard and we hear words that imply that we are simply not putting enough effort. Stress is one thing loh, being away from home is another and knowing that there is another long trip coming soon is worse loh. Oh yah, and there is the matter of another engineer sitting comfortably in office daily, surfing the net and complaining that there is nothing to do while drawing the same pay as me.

Life is not fair loh. Seriously, sometimes i really wonder what the hell am i working so hard for loh? is it worth is anot? all that i can do now is to put on a strong front and crack jokes constantly to keep myself from breaking down. For those people who think that i have a great job, please loh, comment after you have tried this job yourself lah. and for those who think that i'm strong enough to handle anything that comes along, do remind yourself that i'm only human. there is only that much strain that i can take at any one time. I AM ONLY HUMAN!!!

Okay, thanks for reading my bitching. Time to go back to work. :)