Sickness of the home

Have you ever stayed home so long that you feel so sick of staying home any longer? Well, I do, cos there are times that I don't feel like going out but at the same time don't want to stay home also. So what should one do at times like these? I cannot answer them as I'm also still searching for the answer myself.

Somehow, I feel that this has something to do with being alone. Since young, I have been alone in my home most of the time as both my folks are working and my brothers are constantly out. But instead of getting used to the concept of being alone, I kind of resented to that thought. I have no problems staying alone but just that I do not really like it, that's all.

Now that I'm outstationed for a few months, more or less alone, my mind wanders back to the days I actually feel sick of being at home. Initially, the idea of being homesick just doesn't seem to connect with me. Now, I grudgingly have to admit I'm feeling a tinny winny bit of homesick. Nothing much, just fantasizing about the chay kwey tiao, laksa, roti prata, etc, thinking about the view that I'll see on my way home, the smell of my room, the taste of coffee(not the weak stuff they have here), my family, and the list goes on. As I have said lah, nothing much.

Distance makes the heart grows fonder. I guess this really makes some sense now. Should be able to better appreciate the stuff that I have taken for granted back at home last time. Think I should stop now before I start crying for mommy ah. muahahaha...

I'm going to take a bath now, cos I heard about a (good looking) brave guy to took a shower last night even though its damn cold. He is really a hero man~ Wahahahaha