Road Warrior Retires...

I totally suck at driving! I should be banned from driving! I ran over a cat today, and went back and forth on it to see where is it. (okay, the last one is one of my darker fantasy) Thus I have decided to retire from the world of driving.

For a month, that is.

It's almost exam time, and I'm proud to say I don't even remember the subject code of the modules I'm taking. The coming exams are the mother of all exams. The exams to end all exams. That is, if I pass all of them. Finally, my studying life is coming to an end. Almost 20 years have past since I first carried my first backpack to my kindergarten. How time flies, and we are all getting old. Some of you might just become parents in a couple of years. Scary thought? Time to answer the call of over government and get that human factory churning out newborns to replenish the population of Singapore. So those married couples better get working harder, okay?

As for the attached but unmarried people out, better start working hard AFTER getting a license for it, okay? Damn, I getting way out of point, better call it a night~

Presentophobia

The presentation was finally over, but I just couldn't get over my fear of giving presentations in front of a crowd. My legs tremble and my speech gets very retarded. I have difficulty pronouncing words that I usually have no problems saying and many other screwups. The only good thing is that I managed to stretch the presentation to over 15 minutes when I didn't really prepare much for it. Nevertheless, I'm still quite ashamed of my inability to give a good presentation at this stage. How am I going to get into a R & D career when I cannot get my ideas across? Must sit down and re-think my career path again.

Dead man walking

Okay, I'm dead. Going to be dead, to be exact. My presentation is going to be on in 3 hours time and I still don't really know what to say during the session. I'm going to be disgraced in public!!! Luckily, my professor had the decency of booking a small place for the presentation so not many people will attend. But I really don't understand he need to send reminder emails after reminder emails. Scared nobody will attend ah? Nobody attend then good! Don't waste their time.

I had always been afraid to speak up and be the center of everyone's attention. My year 2 public speaking module has been such a disaster for me that I really don't dare to imagine what is going to happen later on. I really want to get rid of this 'stage-fright-syndrome-thingy' before I go out to work so I guess its a good opportunity now. While I admit that it will be a good training for me, its really quite unnerving for me, especially during the waiting hours before the presentation. Really feels like a prisoner waiting for his death row. Argghh... the suspense, the fear, the adrenaline, the feeling of shit coming out. Oops, too much emotions.

Luckily, my friend just asked me to the PROMISED LAND to have lunch and relax abit. Think I will just chill out until my time comes. Going off now and wish me luck! Will be back tonight to describe my traumatic experience to you guys.

I'LL BE BACK.

I finally did it!!

I did it!!!! I finally finished what I set out to do today. It's been a long time since I manage to do that. I can finally start mugging for my coming quiz already, but I still have to set aside some time to plan the presentation.

Anyway speaking for the presentation, it's a 15 minute presentation to bunch of people I totally don't know. It is extremely pointless and my initial plan was to do it as follows:

Me: A very good afternoon to everyone attending this workshop. I shall begin my presentation without further delay.

*Clicks mouse to start presentation slides

Me: (Pretend to laugh nervously) Ermm, appears to have some problems here

*Clicks mouse frantically

Me: Experiencing some technical difficulties at the moment. But rest assured that they will be solved promptly!

*15 minutes later

Me: Yeah! Managed to solved it but I seem to have run out of time. So end of presentation, thank you all for attending!

Very very tempted to try this, but I know I'll be screwed upside down and inside out if I really do this. So I better stop fantasizing already and get back to work. 6 more weeks and I'm through~

Breakfast with my folks

Just back from breakfast with my folks. Did not really want to go but got forced to go by my dad. The following is a somewhat true account of what really happened this morning.

Dad: Oei! Thought you wanted to go school this morning?

Me: I wanna sleep!

Dad: How about breakfast? Wake up and go grab some breakfast with us.

Me: I wanna sleep!!

Dad: Wake up lah, go eat breakfast lah!

Me: I wanna sleep!!!

** Dad pulls out his lightsaber and assumed a fighting stance**

** Hearing the lightsaber, I also performed a Force Jump and drew my lightsaber**

Dad: (Darth Vader breathing sound) Ah Fong, wa si lim lao peh, gia, jia breakfast liao.

Me: (Gasps) Bo kor ling!! Wa ai kun!!

** Mum walks in and performs Force Persuade on me**

Mum: You WANT to eat breakfast.

Me: I want to eat breakfast.

Mum: You are going to wash up and get ready.

Me: I am going to wash up and get ready.

** And with this, I succumbed to the Dark Side of the Force and went for breakfast with my folks**

Thus this is how I was forced to wake up early this morning, and the reason for my early hallucination. So sad right?
Lesson learnt: 1) Psycho people gets better results than forcing people.
2) Do not get too engrossed in Starwars games and movies.

Headaches and more headaches

Plagued by a series of headache today, feeling damn giddy also. Does this mean I'm reaching my limit already? Hmmm... Anyway, still got tons of things to do all the way til Tuesday, thanks to my professor, the slave driver. I'm definitely going drinking next week to ease off some of the stress. Do contact me if you want to join me in chilling out.

My blogging 'kakis' have stopped their blogging apparently due to the lack of things to write. I wonder if there are some other reasons to it. Something to do with the opposite sex maybe? Whatever it is, I wish them luck.

Going to sleep earlier tonight and TRY to wake up early tomorrow to finish up my report and paper and hopefully, my presentation slides. Think I'll drink abit of my Tawny Port to ensure a good night's rest. =)

Lifeforce being sucked right out of me

Its Thursday, tomorrow is the start of a long weekend and I'm not happy at all! Damn, it's so hectic these few days, that my migraine is starting to come back. Yep, the constant buzzing pain at the side of my head. It's more of irritating than painful, to be exact. To add on the misery, I had to choose this hectic time to learn driving. Talk about being a maschoist. It's getting so tired that I'm literally getting my lifeforce sucked out of me. I really do hope that its not my lifeforce being sucked out of me but my ....... toxins. What the heck were youthinking agin?

Anyway, the "I'm too sexy for my blog" wave is sweeping across the works of local bloggers, and its really fun to see all those tongues sticking out. Who am I to break this new found tradition, so here's my contribution!

;P

Okay, done. Consider this my act of contribution to the blogging world. My handphone's battery was drained early in the morning so I pretty much survived the day without it. It was kind of strange, like something missing, but since nowadays not many people want to find me, I guess its alright.

Apologies to the friend who ask me for lunch and starved while waiting for the reply that will never come. And to another friend who owes me red bean soup: Better cook it soon or the photo goes public~

A sad day for NTU

Today was a sad day for the boys of NTU. My people watching buddies and I have concurred that even the 'promised land' of canteen B has its down days sometimes. We waited in eager anticipation, hoping to catch a glimpse of some of the finest ladies that NTU can offer but sadly there was none. So there was little choice for us but to drag our sorry asses back to the north spine and face the harsh realities of canteen A. It was a dark chapter for the boys of NTU today, and one not easily forgotten.

Girls aside, today, many of my final year counter parts got their report back for amendments and can look forward to getting some progress for their FYP. Me, on the other hand, just handed in my draft and my supervisor actually told me that he very busy and will read it when he is free. And FYI, the due date for the final amended report is next Monday, so another hellish weekend is expected. I find that he is more concerned about his research than my future,which is pretty bad for me. Thus, I have no choice but to slack less and pray more.

Getting less sleep nowadays, working on this, studying that. Is that what my life is all about?? Thinking back, I don't really possess a life since I first stepped into NTU anyway, so forget it bah.

Sunday Blues

Its Sunday and I'm having the blues.. How can that be?! Well, it can happen if you are at your final year and exmas are coming. While my friends have more or less finished up their FYP, I still havent submit my draft to my supervisor, who happened to MIA for the entire week! I'm going to hunt him down tomorrow morning hang a pig's head on his door if he is still not back.

I slacked abit, but feeling guilty for slacking at such a crucial period. As my friend told me, we are exactly 1 month from the exams and I haven't touched my books yet. Worst thing is I'm still quite relaxed about it. Am I too overconfident or am I already numb from all the exams? The first option is out for me as I am unable to feel confident, least to say overconfident. So I'm numb. Just a hunch, but I really think I'm not the only one feeling this way. Three cheers for my fellow UHPers!

Anyway, for my group of friends, 2 of them are playing with gals (not so nice way of saying they are courting gals) and another two are doing the juggling act with their gal. I wish them the best of luck and bless them with a fantastic sense of balance. They will need both balance OR luck if they are to survive. For the record, I've been lucky for the past few exams.

At this point of time, nothing is getting in my way of getting my double bachelors except for a screwup during the exams which I will do my best to prevent. If you are too thick to understand my previous statement, it simply means that no Miss Right has entered my life yet. For any supermodels reading this, feel free to apply. Having lost faith in relationships, both platonic and non-platonic, I often wonder if I can forget the past and start trusting again. My friends are starting to say that I am getting more cynical by the day, but I really don't think so. What is cynical anyway? Different people have different standards of cynicalism so what you percieve as cynical may just be practical for me. So just give me a break, alright?

In short, I am who I am, I do what I must. (Oh, its soooo cool!)

The show must go on!

The show must go on! This phrase is the second most frequent phrase in the movie Moulin Rouge. The most frequent on is of course, 'Diamonds are a girl's best friend'. Which we all know its very true. Anyway, the meaning to the phrase, the show must on, in the movie is that whatever happens, they must continue with the show as it is the most important thing in their life.

For us, it means that life must go on no matter what. You fail a subject, so what, the show must go on! You got rejected by your crush, so what, the show must go on! The examples are endless and will probably turn into 1 gigabyte of text if I carry on citing examples. Now that we all know the meaning of the phrase, how many of us are able to actually live by the phrase. Being an extremely modest fellow, I admit that I have loads of difficulty living by that phrase. I know that the show must go on no matter what happens, but sometimes its quite hard, you know. Be it a simple bump on the road or a meteor crater in the middle of the road, we know we have to get through it someway or another.

I used to think that I will have no difficulty getting by any obstacles, big and small. Then I progressed to the stage where I was slammed into the obstacle and felt that I can never ever get through the obstacle. Now I am at the stage whereby I'm in the middle of crossing the obstacle without really noticing how I'm doing it. Sounds kind of abstract, but I'm sure people who had face extreme obstacles and overcame it would know what the hell I am blabbering about. It's quite a strange, but exhilarating feeling to be able to overcome a problem that you previously thought you can never do it. But we will just manage to pull it off.

No significant meaning to this post, just remembered the film and this particular phrase. So to all who is reading, no matter what kind of gigantic obstacle you face in life, just tell youself,' The show must go on', and show the world that it went on.

Drunk yet sober

Hi guys, I'm 50% drunk and yet 50% sober at the moment. Just came back from a drinking session with my pals at WineBos. I really recommend wine lovers to go there to try out some of the outstanding selection of wine at an affordable price. It was an all time high for me tonight as the Port that my friend selected was quite high in alcohol content, but it was good stuff.

Anyway, the past week or so has damn hectic for me as well as for most of my friends in the final year rushing their final year report. So this is Uni life in its ending stage, people frantically rushing for their FYP reports and busy mugging for the exams after finally finishing the report. I had always thought the final semster of the final year of university would be more memorable. In a good way that is. I thought and thought and thought, but I really can't find any reasons for this semester to be memorable except the FYP, which my buddy had quoted, is equivalent to four modules.

Rushing, rushing and rushing. This is my life in the final stages of my University life. Hope the final stages of my life won't be similar to what I am experiencing now as it will be damn sad. Anyway, as I have stated earlier, half of my bloodstream is concentrated with alcohol now. So don't really know what I am talking about. Feeliing quite high at the moment and quite difficult to type as the key board seems to move around and the monitor seems to be swaying side to side. Wow.....

I'm back!

Hi people! I'm finally back! Not that anybody missed me right? My laptop did not really take that long to be serviced, but once its back, I had tons of work to do. So my sincere apologies for not keeping my promise for updating once I get my lappy back.

Alot had happened these few weeks, like I just handed in my FYP draft report yesterday, flunked an interview and so on. No big deal. In the coming 6 weeks, I predict that like will be a bitch for me. And if there is anyone in their final year, reading my entry, I predict the same thing for you.

Ever ask yourself, Why so hard when some S.O.B. out there can get so wealthy without studying hard? I ask myself all the time and the answer is always the same, just how many rich and successful people get to their current position without working or studying hard? Therefore, conclusion is," Work hard and you MAY be successful, slack off and forget about big bucks!"

Too late for me to be successful already, so might as well slack off. Nah, just kidding! Back to my work! Oh, another good quote to those programmers out there. "An infinite loop is a great start to a recursive function". Just thought of it as I'm working. For those who don't understand, trust me, you guys are the lucky ones.

Signing off!